Super Chemo #2

Last week I really struggled with whether or not to continue treatments.  I am so worried about the chemo induced neuropathy becoming debilitating.  (Chemo came about from the use of wartime Mustard Gas when it was discovered Mustard Gas helped kill cancer cells.....lovely, huh?)  I prayed and prayed but was so emotional about it that I had a hard time getting an answer.  Finally on Sunday,  I felt peace, and I felt that I should continue treatments for now.  A few days earlier I had concluded that I would just need to ask the doctor a lot of serious questions before making a decision.  (Questions that I really did not want to ask or hear the answers to.)  On Sunday, once I felt that peace, I felt no need to ask him all of the questions.  I had my answer.

I saw the doctor today.  I have mentioned before that he is an extremely kind Middle Eastern man.  I have always loved him.  Today I loved him more..  Dell told him about my "about face" from wanting to quit on Saturday to feeling peace about continuing treatments on Sunday.  The doctor asked me what made the difference.  I told him that it was prayer.  Up until this day I have not been sure if he was a praying man or not.  Today I discovered that he is full of faith and prays morning and night.   I was so grateful to hear him express his belief and faith in a supreme being.

I finished super chemo #2 today.  After round #1 I had my ups and downs but managed to go to lunch with friends a couple of times and even rode my bike several times!  The appetite seems to be intact :):):)    Life is still good!