Low Blow

We saw the surgeon today.  It would seem this Dr. does not have good news for us usually.  hmmmm. This time was no different.  Dell and I were not expecting this news.  The CAT scan seemed to show much more than the PET scan.  I don't know why my oncologist did not tell us that when the PET scan shows no tumors it could be that they are still there just not growing very fast.  What we thought was a miracle turns out to be not quite so.  Maybe it is a miracle that the tumors are there but I have no real symptoms of the disease at this time.  The CT scan also showed that I have nodules all over my liver now.  They were probably undetected seeds before.  They can not do surgery because of that.   Presently they are almost in a benign state with very slow growth.  He wants me to do more chemo to try to kill the nodules so he can reconsider surgery.  More chemo would probably be in a month or two.  The way things are now surgery would most likely shorten my life if he tried it.  The chemo could prolong my life by maybe 2 years but the surgery after the nodules are gone could save me if the nodules go away with chemo.  I have to say he did not seem super hopeful this time around.  He thought it was good I currently have no symptoms and told me to go on living my life and try to stay positive.

I am at Adrienne's now and will be for almost a month I think.  She is home tonight from her fifth stay at the hospital and hopefully will be well enough to stay home this time.