Living

This is a process,  I realize that now.  Through the last few months I have gone through a myriad of emotions.  Back and forth and back and forth.  There was a period of time when I kept falling into slumps of thinking about dying.  I would think about it way too much and about leaving my loved ones behind and breaking their hearts. I somehow felt I needed to "prepare" them.  Worrying about how Dell could get rid of all the "stuff" in the house and various assundry other issues that it did me no good at all to worry about.  Then one day a dear friend said these words to me.  "Now is not the time to worry about that.  If it ever gets to that point, then that will be the time.  Now is the time to think about living. "  Those words made all the difference to me.  From that day on I have only thought about living and healing and moving forward.  Thank you my dear friend,  Barb.  Sometimes it is just how it is said.